We weren't supposed to find out until later this month, but a few issues made my dr. want to do an earlier ultrasound. The issues were some slight spotting, and the fact that I fainted while at a garage sale. Both issues are fine now. I've learned that the fainting is normal at this stage as my body is pumping so much more blood now. It was embarrassing if anything!
So the ultrasound was scheduled right away. CJ had just started a new job and was not able to make it to the ultrasound. We were both bummed about that, but at the same time, it was so much fun to be able to tell him the news myself:)
All along I have thought this little baby was a boy. A part of that was mostly wishful thinking as I have always dreamed of having little boy(s). At the ultrasound, there were 2 nurses present as one was in training. So I received a very thorough ultrasound. I saw all 4 chambers of the heart and saw him moving around. Twice they commented on how fidgety he was. They also said he has nice strong legs. I wondered...does that mean he has his daddy's long legs? Or does that mean he has the stocky Belsly thunder thighs? A combination of both would be great:)
When the ladies asked me if I wanted to know the sex, I said yes. She simply said "it's a little boy. See?" And she pointed to his little pecker:) Tears immediately began streaming down my face. I couldn't believe it. I was so overjoyed and just kept thanking God in my mind. I can't believe how good he has been to me with giving me all these blessings in my life for all of these years. And now, this life-long dream of having my own little boy. And how much fun the phone call to his daddy will be! The tears kept coming. Uncontrollably. I finally had to ask the nurse for a kleenex as it was getting messing there lying on my back. She asked if I was ok because they probably had no idea I was dreaming of having a little boy! I told them they were happy tears.
I lost my wonderful daddy when I was 16. Richard Joseph Belsly. I haven't seen him in over 10 years now. That thought is mind blowing. He was the man I saw everyday of my life until his death. And of course I miss him. I can't tell you how much I wished I could call him on the phone and just tell him that he was going to have a grandson. And 6 months ago my grandpa died. Joseph Belsly. Having my grandpa alive was always refreshing for me. He resembled my dad in so many ways and it was almost like having a piece of him still around. Now that they are both gone, it's amazing for me to think that there is a baby inside me that will be the 3rd generation of those two wonderful men that I lost. And the fact that this baby will be a sort of combination of those men and the man that I love the most in this world...CJ. Is there anything more wonderful than that?